Even though this time last year everything changed I still thought everything would be okay. But then everything changed again and with starting university ive come to dislike 2/3 of my courses :/ so much work as well for a year that doesn’t cout. Having to start essays now due to length and to actually be able to chill at some point in the holiday and then it’s revision and exams. I feel I don’t even have time for myself. I can’t wait for it to be summer and to relax!
It’s going to be hard especially trying to sleep I just hope I can focus and get everything done.
today has been a bad day. i’ve lost the one i love and my best friend. i just hate how things get in the way of what we love most, it’s going to be a long time before i feel okay. i hate hurting people i love, but if it continued i would have only hurt him more.
i hate myself for being such a dick.